This Might Disrupt You

And that is what it is meant to do.

Dear You,

People often say,
“You’re so lucky. You have your health. You must have money saved. You get to start over — just like that.”

It’s such a tidy story.I

This isn’t a silver platter. This is grit, grief, and starting over.
I didn’t arrive here by luck — I chose this.

But here’s what’s true:

I sold my home, my car, and nearly everything I owned.
I left the U.S. with two suitcases, a small dog, and a deep need for change.
Right now? I’m living off of a very limited budget savings building something from the ground up, something new from nothing.

Yes, I’m healthy — and I don’t take that for granted for one second.
But health isn’t a shortcut.
And this life I’m creating? It’s not easy.
It’s uncertain. It’s raw. It’s real.

I didn’t land here by luck.
I chose this.
Because staying where I was felt like slowly disappearing.

So I leapt.

And I still wake up most mornings not knowing if it will all work out.
But I keep going.
Because something inside me said: You cannot wait any longer to live.

I’m not lucky — I’m willing.
Willing to let go of what no longer fits.
Willing to walk into the unknown.
Willing to disrupt the story — for something more honest.

So if this disrupts you — good.
Disruption wakes up the parts of us we’ve been taught to silence.

Still here,
Carolyn

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