Had I made a HUGE mistake?
What if...
It scared me
I couldn’t sleep.
I couldn’t think clearly.
I panicked.
And
I thought to myself
“This is not me! What is going on”
I am strong, I am woman Watch me grow [ ode to Helen Reddy’s song, I am woman ]
My journey to my new lifestyle took many hours. The flight to Paris was nine hours [ with a Chihuahua at my feet ] I dare not count the hours getting to the airport, the wait it for another flight, the adventure to Dublin across the Irish Sea.
I was physically and mentally exhausted.
And
That night as I crawled into bed at the hotel in Dublin all I could do was toss and turn.
Words did not come quietly into my mind. The words ROARED.
“What have you done” ?
You sold everything, house, car most of your belongings
You are living now with two suitcases and a Chihuahua]
You have no home
You have no car, not even a bicycle to get you from A to B.
Are you mad?
Have you lost your mind?
Now what are you going to do?
Luckily my sister lay in the bed next to me. She was able to speak calmly and
soothing words to me.
You are tired
You are exhausted
You just need to sleep
And so I did. Soundly.
From this experience I have learned that sometimes I just had “ To Be”. I simply had to reflect on the journey I took, the reason behind my move and all the possibilities in front of me. No fear.
As I understand it, fear is a human experience. It is what we do with the fear that counts.
And so, I move forward.
We move forward.
Done.